I Feel Some Type of Way...

You ask me where my boyfriend is, as a compliment to say that you find me attractive so I should have a boyfriend. Yet in the same moment before that, you ask me for my number. What does that say about your perception of me that I would even give you my number if I was talking to some one else. So your backhanded compliment has now turned in to my own evaluation of your mentality. You think all women would be that foul, probably because a woman you dealt with in the past has treated you that way. So you hold it against me when I've done nothing but be in your presence. Like the title says, I feel some type of way, because you have now started this off on a negative note, and i really don't think it is possible to recover.

Growth Within

Accepting my own flaws and shortcomings and learning from them to be a better me, I have come to realize that I am ready for a partner that can truly appreciate the love I have to give. I have a past that is no longer me, and I have a future that I intend to grab hold of completely. I need someone with the mental capacity to challenge me and the physical capacity to satisfy me. I need him to learn from me as a I learn from him, feeding each other knowledge and growing in character, success and love. Whole hearted acceptace of the things we can and cannot change and the wisdom to know the difference. Things worthy of fighting for in each other and not losing our identities because we have come together, but rather playing off of them to shine even brighter.

Yeah...I'm ready for this type of love...

Can you Learn?

Things I wish I could have said...

to a couple of my exes...

I can live with a broken heart, tending to the battle scars of love, but I can't live with a man that is selfish enough to say he still loves me after breaking my heart. If you left me, that means my heart isn't over you, like you are over me. For you to make yourself feel better and make it seem not so bad by saying you still love me, is only going to hurt me more when you move on and I have reinvested in your lies of mutual love. It is hard to let anyone go, this is just a fact, and holding onto them once you let them go giving hope to something that will never be is a cruel way of living life. So if you are a past love and you're reading this, let me go. Just let go, because I have let all of you go, keeping only the lessons and memories.

Exactly What I Needed...

My good-bye to you, because he is everything you're not, and in the midst of me realizing you're not it, he made sure he was it, for me. His smile lit up the room in the darkest of night. He grabbed me close while I danced with him, and I rode him like you wished I would have done for you. He penetrated my body in ways you fell very short. He was exactly what I needed to move on from you. The sweet taste of him inside me as he hit deep down my throat and the edges of my walls, will always be something you could never understand. So I hope you enjoy who ever puts up with your shit, because my rebound has replaced any thought of you. He is everything you're not, and in the midst of me realizing you could never be it, he made sure he was it, for me. Raw passion and unwavering ecstasy brought on by flirtatious vibes, stolen glances, and intimate kisses. He is exactly what I needed.