New Boyfriend Application

So this is a play on the old version I had, but this one is more of a check list of things I want to happen, qualities I want you to have, to see if you are a cut above. 

Personality

• Charming, but not used in a sleazy way
• Loyal to me not just his mommy
• Honest
• Funny, no Hilarious ,when the occasion calls for it
• Smart, not rocket science smart, but smart enough to hold a decent conversation about politics, religion, current events, great novels and other topics of substance.
• Generous of heart and mind, not always of pocket
• Self-Identity, has one and doesn't look for it in me 
• Realist, because anything else just clashes to much

Likes

• Adventure, but can balance my reckless abandon.
• Art & Culture not the stuffy/snobby kind
• Video Games, to the point of enjoyment not life fulfillment
• Sports to the point of enjoyment, not star-crazed fandom
• Sex, but knows the difference between porno dialogue and relationship dialogue

Dislikes

• Everything I dislike. lol

Physical Appearance (shallow I know but hear me out first)

• Taller than me (i'm 5'5 not that hard to do)
• Chocolate, no not the candy, the color. I want to end up with a black guy i'm sorry

Now it may seem like a lot to ask for because its all written out, but honestly, I am more concerned with the man you are not the job you have or the cars you drive. Money comes and goes, but being a good man is hard to find. Honestly if you are this person, you have a stable job, your own residence, and a car to drive, because you are responsible and well put together. If not, I guarantee you are on the way. 

Passion Parties and Sex Classes

so it has been brought to my attention that I should start holding class and doing passion parties again. I think that can be a lucrative and fun way to make money while I try to get this book finished and published. So official notice, I am in the works of planning my lessons and getting supplies. January 2012 it begins. More details to come, so please be on the look out. I will also offer Skype classes for my long distance students. I'm excited so get excited!

Damn I gotta stop drinking.

I know this one goes a way back, but after having a few drinks at my Christmas party yesterday I have been feeling flirty and a little horny. Then today this song pops up on my ipod and I feel like its a sign that I will either have great sex soon or just be horny for a while. I'm hoping for the great sex, but hey we can hope right. 

I figured I have this theme starting of showing videos with my posts, so here you go.

choke me, spank me (pull my hair)- Xzibit 

As the year comes to a close..

here are a few things I learned this year:

• People no matter how much you know them will let you down in a heartbeat.
• Love is for people that aren't me.
• Every time I open my heart to someone they treat it like its worthless and wonder why its so hard for me to love.
• The only person in my corner is always gonna be me.
• Growing from mistakes is hard, but worth it in the end.
• Family is a beautiful thing to have, kids are still annoying
• My tears have fallen too many days, and I need to be happy.
• I have met a handful of amazing people that live nowhere near me
• I am really crabby during the holiday season, slowly becoming a Scrooge or Grinch.
• Cold weather makes me extremely horny.
• Relationship tag sucks for all parties involved.
• Rhode Island is an awful state.

Lil' Mo - Broken Heart

Sit with this one while you wait for me to come back with more posts :)

In the whisper of the night

All I want to hear is the soft breath you take flowing against my neck.
All I want to feel is the gentle caress of your arms wrapping around me.
All I want to see is the deepest parts of your soul from the opening in your eyes.
All I want to taste is the kisses you leave on my lips after you play with my clit.
All I want to touch is the back of your neck as I draw you in closer.

I want the most sensual of moments to be shared with you.
I want the happiest moments of silence as we soak in the pleasure of each others company.
I want you more and more each day, but I realize that is to much to ask of you.
I want for us to be where we need to be with or without each other.

Plus Size Diva in a Skinny Bitch World...

We are a media based society. What we see in the general medias of print, television and the dominant personality the Internet, is the females need to be sexier, sluttier, and all around objects of desire, while men need to be rolling in the money, and sexual gods. Neither side is winning right now, because of this image of perfection that nobody is capable of achieving.

So with that being said, lets take this a step further. Your girl right here is a thick chick, no doubt you have seen my pics in the picture section at the top of this page, so you all know what I look like. I am not by any means this society's standard of beauty. Underhandedly society has let me know this at every developmental stage in my life so far. It doesn't shake my core, because I know the confidence in my walk and the raw nature of my talk speak volumes of who I am and what i'm worth. So I go through my day swinging my hips with grace, rocking my heels with style and flaunting my curves in this skinny bitch world. No offense to the skinny girls, because I fux with y'all, but you are no more fabulous than me and I am no more fabulous than you. I just need you to realize I am here to stay, and the balance is soon to be realized and actualized.

But hey that's just how I feel about society today. Plus size diva in a skinny bitch world ;)

I miss the old me...

I miss parts of the old me who I was before I knew him. The one that didn't give a fuck about feelings. The one that had a plan for what she wanted to do and not just for what she could do. I miss the times I had rolling and not giving a fuck, because I knew how to keep my dreams alive. The old me wouldn't have put up with most of the shit I deal with on a daily basis let alone on the big shit that piles up. The new me however knows how to handle situations better, has better sex, and flirts more, because its healthy. A little nostalgia for the old me, and just to leave ya'll with a little musical enjoyment Nicki Minaj - Dear Old Nicki

Did I forget to tell you?

I don't know how many new people are reading my blog, because I get no comment love..lol, but if you didn't know, this blog is a place for me to vent, dish, and talk out what I'm feeling. If you get offended by anything that is said, you are either telling on yourself or mad the the truth is out there. At any rate, if you don't like what you read please feel free to "Go FUCK Yourself". Thanks for playing and don't worry, your dirty diapers won't be missed.

This has been a message from Management,

Dymond Diva

I need to get a few things straight..

You tell me you love me for my mind,
Every time you come around you want sex.

You tell me I mean more to you than anything,
Every time I need you you're not there.

You tell me I'm the bad in this relationship,
Every time you flake I have to understand.

You tell me I'm the one,
Every time we speak I feel like the back up option.

So I can no longer be mad at you, because I have allowed myself to be where I told myself I would never go again, (the state of LOVE)

Now before I get the haters on my case about oh she's just damaged, she's cold, she's going to be mean to every man she ever meets from now on, let me just say, I have never carried emotional baggage from relationship to relationship. I do however have that little reminder to be careful when entering a new relationship. I forgive, but sweetie never forget. if you don't learn and adapt your life lessons never get learned.