Mixed Signals...Damn!

The cold part about sending mixed signals, is when you do it yourself, without realizing. I had a pretty deep conversation with one of my closest girlfriends, and she really put me on game. I don't intentionally do it, but shit happens right? So let me explain the situation a little, Girl meets boy at party, instantly click. Boy invites girl and friend back to his house with his friends. Girl and boy go off to have a little fun. girl gets drunk and gives her number to guys friend, because her phone is dead and he was like nowhere to be found. fast forward two weeks, girl gets invited to house party at the same house. Guy calls girl out on giving her number to friend, but friend lied and said girl asked for his number. Girl has written friend off as a decent person, so Guy and Girl flirt some more and end up hooking up. Girl talks to guy about kicking it again one on one, guy gets defensive and act like girl is trying to date him. WHOA there guy, girl just said she liked him and wanted to get to know him better because he's cool people. nobody is trying to pursue you like a relationship. We can be friends that mess around. so it was left at that.

What I want/ expect from him:

• a cool dude to kick it with occasionally
• someone to hook-up with when the mood strikes
• someone that knows how to function and can actually hang with my drinking
• a nice set of dudes that can function with me and my girls.

 What he heard and freaked out about

• She wants to hang out one on one and date me
• She wants a relationship
• She's gonna get mad over stupid stuff cause she's a girl. and girls do that
• She's 24 I'm 30ish this is gonna get complicated and I'm gonna hurt her

 So if I sent off the below vibe but what I said was the above statements, I understand the confusion and I wish I could explain that without sounding crazy. I guess all I can do is wait till I see what he does and slowly explain myself, if not oh well, you live you learn, you find a guy with a bigger penis ;)

All I Need ;)

Kirko Bangz - Drank in my Cup

Memories of Passion

The sweet aroma of your masculinity roams the air when I walk through the house. Every deep inhale makes me miss you even more. The times you caress my hair bringing your finger around my face always making its' way down to my breasts. The smooth cup of your hands on them as you slowly turn subtle moments of peace and serenity into bouts of heat and passion. Kissing down my neck to turn it up, because you know how much I like it. Our lips connect and I instantly melt in your arms. I turn to face you, but instead I climb on top of you, straddling your legs in anticipation. I take it slow as do you, kissing deeply, making eye contact with every slide down your thighs. I glide all the way down pulling your shorts with me. Having you in my sights my eyes get big like its the first time I've seen it, and I can't wait to taste you. I wrap my plump lips around you and take you deep within my mouth, spit dripping from my lips as I slide smoothly up and down making you harder and harder with every movement. I stroke your dick as I flick the tip with my tongue. Grabbing in a rapid fashion I stroke you taking you deep within my mouth every motion. I pull my hands away and let you go deeper down my throat. Every time I gag on your dick it turns me on further, making me slippery wet. My sweet essence ready for you to taste. Putting your fingers inside me to feel my warmth and when you pull them out they are soaked. Yours eye light up at the glisten on your fingers and you taste to see if it is just what you imagined. No longer able to contain your excitement, you rip off my lacy panties and thrust your manhood deep within my pussy walls. Barely able to fit all of you inside me I let out moan after scream. Penetration so deep I try to crawl away almost unable to handle all of you. When you pull me back to take it, I smile, your dominance entices me. As you are bent over on top of me thrusting deep, you tease my nipples which turns me on and makes squeeze my pussy lips tighter around your dick. Almost at climax you flip me over to go deeper. The first thrust from this angle make me explode in euphoric pleasure. So you gently wrap your fingers around my neck and pull me closer. My pussy walls pulsating around your dick, my legs shaking, I can't take anymore, but I want it.  Every thrust making me weaker, but my heart racing even faster. I can hear the smile in your voice when you ask me if I've had enough. I say I can keep going, and you do. I refuse to tap out, but I want to taste your juices. I stop you from stroking inside me so I can finish the job for myself. Sucking the tip of your dick you try to hold on, to keep the pleasure coming. When you finally cum in my mouth I lick up every drop that slides down my hands, and swallow it.
The simple scent of you in the air has brought back memories, when you walk in to find me playing with myself, I bite my lip and you know what I really want. I want to relive it over and over again.

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Drown me in the sorrows of yesterday
So I can be brought back to life in the smile of tomorrow.

Take away the suffering of my people
So I can thrive in the future.

Breathe life in to hatred
So I can truly appreciate love.

Show me the difference in my skin and yours
So I can show you where the ignorance begins and ends.

Life without me is a nightmare
So to be in my presence is a dream

He put me on this earth to show you the way
So can lead an army of his soldiers to him.

Don't turn your back on my King
So as to miss out on where you should be living.

Nectar of The Gods

Taste the juice of my body while I sip on the nectar you provide me.
Delighting in the sweet diet of fruits you enjoy on the daily.
Making love to you excites me,
Not knowing what's next,
But always surprised with the outcome.

The sexual presence of your being makes me smile,
Every thrust inside me makes me moan.
The deeper you go the louder I get.

Making puddles of our passion on the bed,
Leaving me soaked. 
Only for you to drink from my martini glass
The juice you worked so hard to collect.

Our bodies lifeless, but satisfied.
You have excited every nerve in my body
while I have drained every pore in yours.

Sex Decisions

Shameless nights of drunken sex
Turning into reckless love stories
Of wandering hands and inquiring minds.
True passion never being met,
But lustful desires fulfilled.

Summer loving is just a melody,
Prescribed by the self made doctor of music relationships.
Dreaming of what could have been,
What should have been,
What never will be,
But what we hope to get back.

Letting the media influence the decisions I make,
telling me its okay to wait, but shaming me when I don't
So confused on what love to give, because I can't get no love in return.

Our bodies engulfed in passion,
never realizing its fake.
Faked orgasm, faked love, faked trust.
Waking up the next day,
Regretting what happened,
Trying to figure out what to do.
Hoping I can leave you with no memory of our encounter,
knowing you gossip just as much as girls do.

Shameless nights of drunken sex
Turning into reckless love stories
Of wandering hands and inquiring minds.
True passion never being met,
But lustful desires fulfilled.