To My Future Husband...

I pen this letter in the hopes of sending good vibes into the world and keep you safe from harm so that you find me. I want you to understand that I may not go to church every Sunday, but I have God in my heart. I may have a past, but I only want you in my future.  I want us to build a life together based on honesty, faith, love, and commitment to be better than we were yesterday. I am full of flaws, as I am sure you are. It took me a long time to accept this about myself, and I know I am always a work in progress. You have found me and I have found you, not as a complete masterpiece but with the knowledge that we will balance each other and create a beautiful composition. There is nothing more I want in this world than to make you happy. I promise to be what you need when you don't realize it and what you want when you desire me. While my life has vision, it is incomplete without you sharing in my joys and helping me through the failures. I will be there for your vision, helping you succeed and helping through the failures. Success is inevitable as long as we stay committed to each other. Understand that I will be wife, mother, chef, therapist, porn star, coach, whatever you need me to be because I love you and will be there for you though it all. We are in this together. If you're mad, go sleep it off in your man cave because arguments will happen, and divorce is not an option. You are either with me or you're not and we need to figure it out before "I do". I will give you all of me as long as you give me all of you.

Know that I intend on keeping my promises of love and fidelity when you make me your wife and I want nothing more than to keep you happy as my husband.

Love Always,
Your Future Wife

Plus Size In The City

How great of a title is that for a blog/column/general use? So you can imagine my regret for not thinking of it when I came across a modeling agency with the exact name, now if I tried to create a blog with that title I would feel like a copy cat. Just terrible news. But all jokes aside I need to brainstorm new names for this blog to shorten the length of the URL.

I hate proving ignorant people right...

While I still believe men and women can be friends, when they fight like bitches nobody wins. It just proves the point of people who say they can't be. Another one bites the dust.

At least I didn't cry like a bitch...

When you have people in your life, you take the good with the bad because everyone has flaws. To attack someones personality because you were hurt is like sipping hot coffee and getting made you were burned. You don't like the way I communicate, then I guess you should have said that. You called me names, yet I'm the one not acting like an adult. But I guess when you are too far up your own smug sense of self worth to see that I didn't do anything wrong, you just didn't like it you would realize you were an ass and I'm sorry that I hurt you. I accept people for who they are, I don't try to change them. We interact not because it's mandatory, but because we enjoy the other's company. When it feels mandatory, I pull away because nobody is required in my life but me. Acting like I didn't tell you I do that is your own fault not mine.  I was a little shocked to get passive aggression from someone who I thought was better than that. When I should have realized he alienated his friends himself. I can keep my friends, yet you keep loosing yours. You talk so much shit about one girl, yet you're exactly like her. Yeah she gossips and talks about people, and while that's your main reason for disliking her, that is the exact same shit you do. I didn't care, because we were still cool. That's what friends do. I was more of a friend to you than you realize, who else is going to put up with your annoying habits now? lol alright that was mean, but he was a jerk for no reason. This whole thing is going to bug me for a while, but that is enough random points in the conversation I had this morning. I guess the circle got smaller today, and I'm okay with that part, just the reason why is so passe'. I'm the one that needs to be an adult, but your reasoning and actions are the ones that are childish. Okay sweetie ;)

My first e-book

My first published work!!!! It's only $0.99 so nothing crazy just a little story I worked on to get me going and feel out the publishing world, well at least feel out amazon and how it works.

Heartbreak: The Rise and Fall

Check it out, buy it, spread the word!