My poem for him...

My thoughts of him are poetic.
I want to write to him
In a way that he can understand how open I am with a simple look
In a way that he sees my sensuality before I place my lips on him
In a way that transcends any connection made, because we were made for one another.

He brings my day joy with a schoolboy infatuation.
He makes me smile with his warm heart and flirty demeanor.
His voice sends chills down my spine.

I want him. I want all of him
Mind body and soul
I want to be the woman he needs and
I want to be the woman he wants.
I want to be his smile as he is mine.

So my thoughts of him are poetic,
but I am not a poet,
Just infatuated

Sex, Heart, and Passion

My sexual freedom is not the definition of who I am
But what is a small fraction of how I act.
No man or woman on this Earth can define me
Better than me.
I allow you to see certain parts of who I am
But having the full picture you wouldn't know how to act.
My full story still being written
With some good dialogue so far.
Preach to me the goodness in my heart
and I'll show you the depths of my soul.
There is nothing you can tell me
about me
that I don't already know.
I say this to say,
Who I sleep with is none of your business
but if its part of what i'm sharing
you need to wise up and listen to what i'm saying.

Cake...Cake...Cake...

So you want me, but not really, and to top it off nobody else can have me. Selfish niggas like you make me sick. How dare you be possessive when you not trying to claim me fully, and then have the audacity to be jealous when someone else is interested. If you not putting in work, why would I? I'm no man's option. If you want me, get me, if you don't, move along. You are wasting my time and I'm not going to play your games. Putting me as a side chick will never keep you warm at night, and it won't get your dick wet, so remember that the next time you say you miss me, or you want me, or hell even when you say "what's up". Don't try to give me girlfriend duties if all you want is booty. I'm too comfortable being alone and pleasing myself to deal with a lame nigga that just wants my goods. If I don't give you the time of day, it's for a reason!

Guess Who Started Dating?

that's right, after a LONG relationship drought, I have started dating again. I am looking to the future and becoming more of an adult in this area. While old habits die hard, I have noticed some strong progress in myself and it has even been recognized by some of my friends. I leap before I look, and tend to get hurt, but every leap is a new adventure for me, which I am thoroughly awaiting to lead me to a companion worthy of making me truly happy. Back on the dating scene, and i'm going speed dating in a couple weeks, with a couple dates lined up this week. I'm excited :)

Think About It!

I came across this picture as I scrolling through my facebook timeline, and it made me pause and really think about the answer. Honestly 5 people came to mind when I answered it. I won't put all of their names out there like that, but its so true. I wish when I met them, I knew how much they would hurt, how much they would change my life, and how much they would damage me. Then I think about it some more, and if I didn't know them or knew them differently, maybe I wouldn't be who I am today. Let's face it, it took me a long time to get to where I am, however I have fallen in love with myself, so having that kind of perspective I wouldn't change anything that got me there.

How many years...How many tears...this is where we are love

The audacity of some of you niggas...

YOU DON'T DESERVE A FUCKING AWARD FOR LIKING, FUCKING OR DATING A FAT CHICK. You are not doing a good deed for acting on something you are attracted to. If you think otherwise, you are a waste of space on this Earth

Boy Toy get no love from me...

"I have a hard time trusting a man that wants to be with me, but doesn't want to be with me"

I have no problem having a boy toy that I can call up for the get down, but there is a line I can't cross emotionally with them. If we are just fucking you don't get to see my heart, or be apart of my ambitions. We are here for this and this alone, so if I stop talking to you or become unresponsive I feel as though you are crossing into territory that is not yours to invade. My favorite boy toy of all time, knows me better sexually than anyone else. We have had relations for over 6 years, and still going strong. He gets out of line calling me for friend type shit or trying me on some boyfriend type ish, but the dick is good, so on occasion I let him slide. But back to my main point, I already have a hard time trusting men, but a man that wants to lay with me but not be with me, gets the bare minimum effort sexually, and gets nothing emotionally. You aren't even worth the emotional investment, because your man goal is to get me naked and make your dick wet. Never sleep with someone you already have an emotional relationship with, because if they don't want to be with you, then they shouldn't be in your bed. I have learned this the hard way, but I have finally learned it.