I am a writer

I am not a novelist, poet, or even a master of words, but I promise to tell you a story when you read my thoughts. I give you all of me in what I write. I am flawed and some times I appear incomplete. Hidden in the depth of my inner workings, my feelings hold strong the objectives I push to the front. I have yet to complete a novel, but the ideas I have, could make up volumes. I have yet to publish my poetry, but the spirit of the imagery used is ever present in all that I do. I have not mastered the words that give me the strength to create, but I learn more in every wake. I am a writer. I create stories intertwined in my speech and allow you to think about the unknown in my words as they are forever open ended. Your interpretation of how I create what I love will always differ in opinion to what I intend for you to understand. I leave you the rights to your thoughts on what I do, but you will never understand me better than me. I am not a novelist, poet, or even a master of words, but I promise to tell you a story when you read my thoughts.

-unfulfilled and untitled-

Lust in my eyes.
Love in my heart
I want to be his.

He shows me what real love is
He shows me what real passion is
He shows me what a man is

He knows what a woman is in me
He knows what I want from him
He knows what he can give me

I love his essence
I love his core
He is my man.

When Will I Learn...When Will You Leave...

It still hurts every time I look at you. I get mad all over again, because I'm still getting pieces of you. You always say today will be different, but you still haven't changed. I don't know what will make me realize I should stop giving you chances, but I think its because you won't let me go. When you sent me this song, I knew you understood, but you still don't get it.

I don't think we will ever end up together. I'm not Carrie and you're not Big. We won't end up like them, I'm just waiting for you to see it. Maybe you can change my mind before I change yours. I guess we will be in limbo until a real change happens.

Love

I miss the way I felt when I had someone that loved me and I loved them. I miss the different level of completeness that comes with being with someone. Am I in love with the idea of love, YES! I think the idea of love is an amazing thing, but not a greater pull than being in love. Many people are in love with the idea of a wedding but not with the idea of marriage, if that makes it easier to understand. I love hard at every step of the way, so for me to open up and love you, I need to know that I can trust you with my love. I'm done looking for love, because I know it will happen. I'm back to working on me, because everything else will fall into place.