March 13, 2012

My blind spot is no longer hidden...

I may have put to much pressure on what I wanted from him. So much so that I was blinded by my own desires instead of seeing you for you. Maybe we are in two different places, better yet, we clearly are. I thought  I could have you, the way I wanted and not the way it is. It makes me sick, because you proved my little internal theory right. No woman should pursue a man, because if he doesn't want her as bad or more than she wants him, he will never stay. In certain moments you make it seem like you're all about me, but I realized that was when it was convenient for your schedule. No i'm not used to being second place, but I know the difference between second and last. I'm not a patient woman, and It may be rude on my part to ask for others patience, but I am who I am. If you don't like it, then WALK, I don't hold it against you. You simply were not strong enough for me. So as I close this mini story, I hope you realize, you lost a good woman, you threw me to the ground and bruised my ego, but I will get the one that's right for me when hes ready to peel off the thick skin and get to my juicy center.
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  1. AnonymousMarch 15, 2012 at 2:54 PM

    I don't understand the disconnect. i couldn't have been anymore real with you. i opened deep dark rooms in my heart where i locked away my personal demons and showed them to you. i have put my all into you on multiple occasions. i'm not gonna apologize for being driven one of the things that you found attractive about me until it effected you. i truly want to be the well-rounded successful man that you claim to want. but at this point your self-centered nature is to much for me. but you are the ONLY exception. if this is truly good-bye then i wish you well in finding what you want and need. if this is see you later then i hope to return to you as the person that you need on all levels and i hope our time apart you will be able to fight and banish your demons as i will be attempting to do the same thing.
    I LOVE YOU Ms.Diva,

    Mr.Johnson

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    1. Dymond DivaMarch 16, 2012 at 6:15 AM

      You say you couldn't have been more real, I beg to differ. If you call real talking on the phone and playing around on skype you are mistaken. I'm self-centered, but all I wanted was to spend time with you, heaven forbid! You made time for every other bitch on the planet except when it came to me. You called me from other dates because females were boring and you would rather talk to me, but I give you me and you barely squeeze me in, so I don't apologize for wanting to be with you. I found your ambition attractive, because you still did things for you, but the moment that went away, you were no longer the man I fell in love with. you let your sister run your life, you father dictate it and your mother influence you. I love you with all my heart Mr. Johnson, but our relationship was too toxic for you or me to be happy. This is truly our Good-bye, because I can't do the roller coaster with you.

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