If you read this...

I just want you to know that you ruined everything we had. You did that, not me, not the excuses you made for yourself and our situation, not anybody you ever interacted with when it came to me, YOU. We will never be a couple, we will never be together, so if you miss me, that's on you, don't call me, text me, add me on social networks. Just be a man and deal with your feelings. I am not a therapist, I am not your mother, you weren't even man enough to make me your girlfriend, so the big talks of me one day being your wife are a joke. Real feelings don't go away, and they haven't for me, but I won't do this with you, you are on your own. Leave me be, because I was fine before I knew you and I am fine now that you're gone. Live your life and let me live mine. We don't need to be together, and you are not it for me anymore, so move on to someone else. Don't love me, miss me, or even remember you know me.

Fantasy...

Every time I close my eyes I imagine you holding me, kissing me, and enjoying me. I remember your essence when you're not here and I yearn for the moment you return. To see your smile, to hear your laugh, to feel you next to me. My body aches to feel you inside me, wondering if you will fit perfectly like I have imagined time and time again. Before I get too excited, I wake up with my panties soaking in anticipation, only to realize you are nothing more than a fantasy. You are intangible and it makes it all that more enticing. To have you would be exciting, to chase you would be adventurous, and to wait for you to fall in my lap would be priceless. I will just have to keep my distance, because the more I am around you the more I want you and I know i can't have you.

I'm a big flirt...

but sometimes, it gets me in so much trouble. I like someone I shouldn't, and I see him far to often for me to not develop these feelings because of flirting. It doesn't help that i haven't had sex in 3 months. So with that being said, I need to stay away from men i'm tempted by, because I may do something that will make it difficult to be around said flirt trouble.

Things I want in my immediate future...

• a sober make out session with someone I want to sleep with
• a little sexting during the day to get me through the work day
• intellectual stimulation to the point it makes my panties wet
• one round of normal make me climax sex
• one round of passionate fucking
• Dinner cooked by me, enjoyed by two

I need some real life adult time, because I have been stuck in my house for far too long. I have my life back, so I want all the aspects back as well. 

One Day...

Reality is a dream when hope has left the picture.
Give me life when all that is on the horizon is death
Make me feel something I've never felt before
Pull me into a world that once forgot about my heart
Be the happy place I go to when I'm sad and feeling lonely

Necessary Cliche'

Dream of a time when you were happiest.
Let it be the motivation for your forward movement.
Watch for a similar downfall so as not to repeat the tragedy
Breathe life into all that you do and
Give yourself hope instead of waiting for it to be served.
In the most cliche' of ways,
You are the maker of your own destiny,
So make it the way you want it to be.

Music makes me...

I've been listening to a lot of music and two completely random songs keep popping in my head.. Both of which perfectly describe how I want an amazing night of body quaking, leg shaking, escapade of passion to occur. Obviously with better transition than skipping from one tempo to the next, but I feel like a good round one and two with a break in the middle. 

So we start like this right:

And then we transition to this:

When you're ready..

Tell me you want me
Show me you can handle it

Tell me I'm beautiful
Show me off in public

Tell me all the naughty things you want to do to me
Show me you can follow through

Tell me you want to be with me
Show me that you can be

Tell me your dreams, desires, and goals
Show me how I fit in that plan so we can grow

Tell me how I can support you
Show me you can support me

But don't just Tell me, Show me.

Real Talk...

What you fail to realize is that loyal pussy is rare now a days, as well as loyal dick. Your biggest issues of relationships is trust, so why would you treat a loyal chick like a bitch that doesn't know any better. When you slip up, cop out, and make excuses, someone that won't do that is always right around the corner. Waiting patiently for you to fuck up and pick up the broken pieces of heart. So sit there, mind your business, but when they leave your ass, you won't need to wonder why, cause I just told you.

My Nigga...

oh wait I forgot its black history month, and far too many self appointed negros have an opinion on what I can or can't say even though I was given the right to freedom of speech after my people fought for them. So get off your soap box and your high horses just because it is February and you know how to read  few facts that have been recycled since I was in grade school. I don't need your high and mighty bullshit, when you listen to the same comedians, actors and rappers as I do any other time of year. Spare me your hypocritical bullshit and let me live my life.

Thanks,
From Management

Words of Wisdom...

• Don't ever give the best of you to someone that isn't worth it, but then again if they aren't worth it, why are you dealing with them? 
• A girl has many things to offer, but if all she shares is her legs nobody will ever know that.
• Give me pause for any reason, and I'll show you how iced my heart is.
• Panties are for when you leave the house. At home you can be as free as a bird
• Beds are comfiest when its time to wake up, and rock solid when you try to fall asleep.
• Details are what make my heart go thump, thump. 
• Sensuality and openness about sexuality are on a thin line between character flaw and asset.
• Value of a friendship is the foundation on which two people grow together

Kiss Me Damnit!!

Press your lips against mine
Inhale deeply through your nose
Slide your tongue inside my mouth
As you exhale
Wrestle with the tip of my tongue
Before you leave completely
Grab onto my lip for one last embrace

Kiss me with passion,
Show me you want me
Hold me close and
Never let go.

Text me...Tease me...Please me...

You penetrate my mind with the words that flow through our shared texts and conversations. It ignites passion and stimulates my intellect. I want to feel your body in a way that transcends a physical connection.  But until that point, we need to work on a few things. Light flirting turned into a sexual blueprint of impending conquest. My juices flowing; soaking my lacy boy-shorts as I imagine the smooth touch of your shaft glide up and down over my pussy lips before you thrust inside me.
Your words are poetic in form, simple in transaction, and perfect for the moment. Boosting my libido to a point where I want to show you all the naughty tricks and tongue flicks I know I can provide. We continue to exchange sexual innuendo and intelligent raw articulation. My heart beats faster in anticipation of my lips wrapped around you, my tongue spelling out the alphabet over the tip of your dick as I look you square in the eye.
The organic conversation of a lady and a gentleman transformed into a raunchy detail of a woman with the sexual prowess of a porn star and the scarlet tales of a man with the stroke of king kong. Communications that truly engulf ones imagination turn to passion with the intimacy to back it up. The simple words, charm, and wit of someone can revolutionize the direction of a conversation making it into whatever crosses your mind.

Working on a new book concept...

Kind of really excited about it...getting me happy about writing again. As I wind down in completion of "More Than You Can Handle" this new concept comes at a perfect time. I'm little angry that I let myself get down about writing, when I know I love it so much. The struggle is real for me right now, but i won't let it break me!

Writing...a second guess on self

How do you put into words something profound without first having anything to say? As a writer, you want your voice to be heard, your message to be received, but if you feel you have nothing important to say where do you go for inspiration. Your words lack meaning and in the age of technology and information the creative mind is lost in a sea of infinite possibilities. The passion behind my words are genuine, but how do I get others to hear what I have to say when what I have to say is only dear to me?

It hurts...

On the last whim of hope I want my dying breath to be one of light.
I can tell that the love in your eyes has faded.
Breaking my heart to the last little drop.
When I breathe again in the afterlife
I know you will be standing there broken
And I will have moved on
Finally

So Sickly...

So I made a promise to myself that I would write everyday of the year, but I've been so weak and tired, all I had time and energy for was pushing play on my netflix and bundling up in my blanket for warmth. So now that I am feeling better, I am in a position to get back to posting on a regular basis. In case anyone was wondering, I'm still not sure what is wrong with my liver, but its not doing what it supposed to do. My other problem with my period should be fixed over time, but I am feeling great these days. Just a little FYI in case you didn't know :)

Just a thought...

I feel like bitter people have a deep rooted anger for the choices they have made instead of the choices people make with them. They throw outward anger because its easier than looking at themselves. With that being said you got a bunch of angry people walking around ruining other people's day because they fucked up and dated/married/loved the wrong person. The endless cycle of bitterness can only be changed once people take responsibility and hold themselves and loved ones accountable for personal action.

Boss Type: I'll treat you right...

Show Me a Good Time...

Show me you mean business, and I might give you a chance. I can't tell you how many times guys think it is acceptable to give minimal effort and expect maximum return. I'm not a cheap thrill, and I'm not looking for a come up, so show me a good time, because I can show you one. This goes above and beyond sex, because hunnie I got way more to offer than that. I make my own money, so if you're worth the time, I'll spend that dime. I look for more than lame texting and flirting back and forth. Your arrogance for how amazing you are, but all you have is a list of demands and no action plan, I don't have time for it and you will be skipped over. Taking advantage of my generosity will be spotted quick, you will be called out, and left in my dust.
So many people have lowered their standards and then wonder why nobody has anybody worth anything; which in turn forces anyone with standards to be alone until they find a unique individual that is willing to do the same. Personally I am very okay with this, I have friends and family that can hold me down till someone can show me a really good time.