Big Mind...Small Mind....

So i've been meaning to talk about this one for a while. There's this guy, and i'm really feeling him. I like his style, his swag if you will. I am beginning to be smitten with him, and if you know me, i want to know what he's like, and if you don't know me that means i hope he knows how to fuck. (excuse my language) So he comes over to my place, and we hang out, we're talking and laughing (you know the whole we're getting to know each other thing), and then next thing you know i'm laughing he's laughing and decides he's gonna kiss me. I'm sitting there suprised, but not pulling away it was good to me, so i go with it. Things are starting to get hot and heavy, so i'm still going with it. This guy, to my surprise, was huge. I was totally into it and was like it's gonna be amazing, he's sexy, he's kissing me right, this is going to happen and its going to be mind-blowing and extremely satisfying. BOOOOOOOYYYYYYY was i wrong. Maybe its me, but i'm pretty sure its not. I suck it up with the best of them, and I had this guy toe-curling saying my name it was so good to him. If I have time to think about what i'm gonna do after work in three days that is not okay with me. Pump, pump, pump away sweetie, but if you got 8 inches, and can't work it, you don't deserve it. I was lonely in disappointment city, and wanted to just say ya know what it's okay you can stop. I didn't want to be mean, so i tried to change positions....Let's just say it was better, but not great. I was mostly disappoited because i really liked the guy.

I decided it would be wrong this time to just write him off, so i decieded i'll give him another chance, it was our first time, i'll give him the benefit of the doubt. So we take a break from that, and focus on building our relationship. We deciede there is no nervous pressure, we are comfortable with each other, let's try this again. (GOOD COMMUNICATION MAKES A BETTER RELATIONSHIP). So we are getting hot and heavy just like before, and he is putting in work. I am feeling great, back arching, heavy breathing, moans and screams, i'm about to have an explosive orgasm, and he cums. If only you could see my level of pisstivity (yes I made up my own word for it). SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO close, yet let down again, and then had the audacity to ask me if I got off. Do I look satisfied right now?

I will take this as a learning experience and write this one off. I mean the communication was there, the chemistry was there, the passion was there, but we could not make it happen. You live you learn you get a vibrator to fill the gaps. Since this happened a while ago, I have since this time had better sex, so i know it wasn't me, and truly know we were not meant to have an intimate relation. Please continue to send in questions i know i haven't written in a while, but i am finding more time to get it done, so untill the next question rolls my way Much love and happiness...enjoy your night