That he won't wait for you or that he will?
I was watching Castle the other day and this is what Beckett's therapist said to her, and it didn't really sink in until my favorite person said it to me almost word for word when I was talking to him about a certain someone. It made me think about what I was holding on to. I want him, and then I don't. I feel like it going to end up like Carrie and Mr. Big from Sex and the City minus the marriage. We are going to keep going back and forth and one day I will either finally let him go or he will move on as well. I love him more than words can describe and through our problems of not being able to get on the same page for 5 years, I wonder if it is something that we have become accustomed to as a safety net or could we survive after we are official and/or on the same page. He has a special place in my heart even though we basically have a Skype relationship. Its a big concern for me, because all I want is to be happy with my future life relationship, but I don't want to miss out on someone that is meant for me playing relationship tag like its a game. How long do you wait to get what you think will make you happy? Nothing in life is absolute nor is it guaranteed, so how am I to know if this is what my life has in store for me when I am afraid of what could happen if its over or if its my path. Just something I have conflicting in my heart and head. #ImConfusedInLove
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