Loving my curves

Loving your body at any size is an essential part of having an amazing sex life. I won't preach on and on about size beauty, because if you are anywhere near a computer or TV you hear enough of it. To have full uninhibited pleasure you have to let go of all inhibitions to begin with. Not to say you should push your moral envelope just be less concerned with how you look. Let's face it they are having sex with you because they like you for you and if it is not the case you shouldn't be jumping in the sack with them.
For the longest time I wasn't happy with my curves almost ashamed of them. (Then again what big girl hasn't gone through a phase of insecurity.) One day as I got out of the shower, not being more than 16 or 17 years old, I just stood in front of the mirror afraid to see beyond my towel. I closed my eyes tight and dropped it, and still without a peek I picked up the towel and turn my back on my body while I wrapped myself in its soft embrace. I had to have done this process over a dozen times over the next hour and a half. With my skin drying out from the shower water, my body needed lotion something fierce. After I applied the lotion, I stood up without a second thought and looked in the mirror before I could chicken out and grab my towel. For those of you who know me, you know i'm on the chunkier side of thick. I have an hour glass shape with a little extra around the middle. I stood in front of the mirror looking at every curve, shape and piece of fat that jiggled when I moved too quickly. Like most women I saw things I wanted to change, but I saw my body in a whole new light. I embraced myself and began to fall in love with my shape. My ample bust line, my voluptuous backside and thick juicy thighs. I wasn't the picture of perfection that most girls my age strive for, but I still loved what I saw. coming to terms with the fact that I would never be a size 2 like the women in magazines helped me realize the potential and sensuality in myself. I've had my share of flirtatious advances, but I have also had the scummy guys that will say anything to get anything even when they don't mean it. It takes a balance and a good sense of who is true, but in the end I had to love me for me or change it so that I could be happy and sane. With all that being said I know my guy loves my curves as much as I do and that's all I care about, me being happy and him loving me.