January 19, 2012

Dear Diary,

I met a boy today. His personality is vivacious, His interest in me pure in nature but naughty in approach. I don't know if I should give him the time of day, I already have a boyfriend that I am very happy with. I gave him my number anyway. Maybe he will fizzle out and that will be the solution to my problem.

Fast Forward 1 year

Dear Diary,
This boy is still around. I don't know why? I realized when I got back to school, out of sight out of mind, but he  still calls me, just to check in. I told him I didn't think it would work, he wasn't the one for me. My old boyfriend broke my heart, but I guess this new guy stuck around long enough to try and fill that place. I'm still in college 3,000 miles away, we wouldn't work anyway. Maybe he will fizzle out now that I give him more attention. That happens sometimes, you realize you have less in common than you think.

Fast Forward 1 year

Dear Diary, 
He tells me he loves everything about me. Things are getting a little too real for me. I feel like he might actually last, but every time I give him a little piece of me, he goes ghost, and when I am MIA he is all up in my face. I don't understand him. He's the stereotype of a man when give him a piece, and different when I don't. Well I'm moving home soon, maybe things will be different, since I will be in the same city. Or maybe he will fizzle out.

Fast Forward 2 years

Dear Diary,
What the actual Fuck? This man drives me crazy. I know I do the same, this must be why we are both still here. I swear these last two and a half years I have been back home, have been crazy for me. He and I keep playing relationship tag. Why are we doing this to each other. The stress, the heart ache; I know I am not the only one going through this. Maybe this man is for me. Cause His crazy ass makes me happy, sad, irritated, elated all wrapped up in one. He's been saying for literally years that I was the one for him, but I didn't fully believe it till now. So taking steps forward, I hope he doesn't fizzle out.

To Be Continued...

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